Reflecting on Life

When I look back on my childhood, taking the time to evaluate my life, or maybe I should say the areas that I wrapped my arms around and embraced and those that I didn’t, it brings great joy and in some cases a level of sadness. Turning the clock back to my childhood, growing up on the farm during the 50’s and 60’s with little spare cash, just enough to get by with and sometimes not even that much, I had a good life that taught me more than I ever gave it credit for.

Graduating High School in 1968 while the Viet Nam war was in full swing, seeing many of my friends serving there and returning home not the same person, some in a box, some missing limbs, but mostly changed personalities due to the effects of the war, was a difficult time.

Getting married at age nineteen, building our first house at age twenty, becoming a father at age twenty-one, were huge steps in life for me.

The foundation learned as a youth growing up was never lost, only forgotten for many years. Saddened by so much I had witnessed as a youth and my mid-teenage years in the religious arena, set my life path in motion. Determination set in, a drive to enjoy life, to become financially sound, to take a stand against all that didn’t fit into my version of faith, all began while still in high school.

Working my way up the ranks of my first job, I worked hard. I took on two jobs in those early years trying to earn what I felt was required to be a good provider. Then becoming licensed in the electrical trade and eventually starting our own company my life was very busy. Between work, family and fun, I had my hands full. Then my eyes were opened to the rest of the world when I took a new job in 1986. Being able to travel to many parts of the world, I began to see and feel the effects that war really has. To be close to war, hearing how others dealt with war both old and new, grasping the many religious faiths and beliefs including those that have no belief in God, it kicked in motion my past and the emotions caused me to re-evaluate my understandings of life.

So what does this mean in the grander scheme of things? It shows that from childhood on, our lives and personalities are set in a direction and become altered as we continue to age, grasping new information, learning about others we cross paths with. The real question is; do we allow ourselves the freedom to open our mind and explore what we see and hear? Or do we remain set in our ways determined not to allow change? Do we even recognize that we are closed to anything that may disrupt our desires and beliefs in life?

For me, I spent the time to re-evaluate my past, examine what I had learned and experienced, and to wrap my arms around what I believe this life is all about. I worked hard to eliminate the mental blocks that so often accompanies our attempt to truly understand, disabling any rational outcome. What I found was that I could make a decision for myself, placing my faith in what I had come to understand. While it was influenced by many, it was in the end, my choice, my decision, my beliefs.

So there’s this lingering question

When was the time you slowed down long enough, shoved the distraction aside, threw out the external influences of those that educate with an agenda whether religious or non-religious or educational and dug deep enough that you allowed yourself the freedom to choose where you have placed your faith?

One of the biggest things I learned along this adventure is that it takes faith to believe in life, it takes faith to believe what it is all about. It takes faith to believe in God or to not believe in God. It takes faith to believe in the direction we choose for our lives.

Where is your faith placed?  


No God? – God? – Allah? – What God?

I’m not a Theologian, Pastor, Rabi, Priest, an Iman or any form of religious leader including any form of leader in this world that believes there is no God. I’m just a regular person that does not let skin color, race or anything else enter into my ability to ask questions and think for myself.

The asking of challenging question can be a difficult task especially when we are asking ourselves. Many time we do not wish to hear anything outside of what we believe to be true. To truly understand we must open our minds if we truly desire the truth.

Please read on, give this some thought and you draw your own conclusions.

Is the God of the Muslim belief, is the God of Islam and the God of Christianity the God of the Bible the same God? There are many debates on this, but for just this instant let’s say they are.

If God is who He said He is and God sent or enlightened his Prophets to inform each of us how to live our life, then He cared for everything he created which includes all men, women, and children around the world. If Jesus said to love your God with all your heart and love your neighbor as yourself and Muhammad said to kill everyone that does not believe as I do, then who do you want to believe?

Remember it takes “Faith” to believe either way.

So who do you want to believe? Where do you place your faith?

Do I believe the One that teaches love everything I have created including all men, women, and children – or – do I believe the one that teaches kill men, women, and children that don’t believe as I do?

This is a hard question for some to answer because of the abuse so many have encountered in their lives. However, does it makes any difference who you are, what country you live in, what color your skin is, or how you were raised. All abuse has been handed down by the “hand of man.” If you are a Christian or a Muslim, if you hand down cruelty and hatred, you are not doing what God wants you to do.

Only “WE” can make a difference. It starts as an individual then to our family then to our friends then to the rest of the world.

Breaking it Down – “Evolution” or “God”

Did we Evolve? Who is God? Is He Real?

Great questions and worthy of investigation by everyone even if one doesn’t believe there is a God of any type. It’s always positive to explore open-mindedly something just for the sake of knowing if you’re right in the beliefs and understandings you currently hold.

Breaking it Down

  • If the world and everything we see, feel, hear, and smell happened by way of evolution then it all start “somehow” at “some time” in the past.
  • Something cannot be made out of absolutely nothing? I expect that human knowledge will tell us that we need something to start with.
  • If the evolutionary theory is actually how everything started, it needed something to begin with just to get started regardless of what took place that began the formation of everything.
  • Where did this come from? Just who or what could have provided these things?
  • To find out who or what could have done these things we should, I would think, go back as far in time as humanly possible.

Food for Thought

When the sciences are exploring and working to find the origin of time, when and how things originated, or how old things are, they go back as far as they can to identify the age and origination. With no documentation available that is dated millions or billions of years ago, it leads one to speculate. Experiments and testing must be done based on the assumption of what we believe things were like when it all began. However, something must have been in existence if we believe something cannot come from nothing. If we have any documentation, we should utilize it and prove or disprove its truth and not just say yes it is or no it isn’t.

Breaking it Down a Little More

  • The oldest book that ever was written was/is the Bible.
  • Who wrote it? It was written by man as all books are written by some man or woman. So human desires and human error can come into play.
  • If the oldest book that was ever written tells us that God created everything from the very beginning of time, then how do we know that the Bible is an authentic book inspired by God?

Food for Thought

If you were to read a novel or some story that has several books that tell the complete story, like a trilogy, would you read only the first book or first couple books and make up your own ending? Most of all, would you know the real outcome of the story? No, it would be your version of the ending.

Breaking it Down Again

  • If one should be of some faith that believes in God (i.e., Muslim, Jewish, Christian, etc.), or even an atheist who believe in no god, then wouldn’t it be a good idea to read the entire book to see if there are truths written in it? Shouldn’t we want to check out every reference noted in the book exploring to see if it has the possibility to be factual? If we place our lives outcome in what we choose to put our faith in, and it does take faith to believe in God, some god or no god, then we should desire to know the truth and there is only one way to find it.

A little more Food for Thought

If one was to write a scientific paper on any topic in the science world, would you read only part of a book and complete your paper? Would you read the entire book and finish your paper? Would you research other writings on the subject and complete your paper? If your desire is to convince people from all walks of life to take what you have written as factual, then you need to address all possibilities showing that you have done research on each area.

So what is this all about?

If God is real and he started everything regardless of how it started, then there is only one God, the God that started it all regardless of what you call Him. If the Bible is truthful and it states, “In the Beginning God Created the Heavens and the Earth,” then science should always take this into consideration. If the Bible is real, regardless of the fact that it was written by the hands of humans, then one should utilize and research the complete story. We should look at everything that was written in the Bible hundreds and even thousands of years before it actually took place. One should not stop at the end of some chapter and write conclusions based on one’s own desired outcome.

My Conclusions

I believe that science works very hard and has so much to offer. I also believe that God is real and that there is only one God. I believe that if science would utilize what is written in the Bible as a possible foundation for how everything started, using all available technologies and findings, they will find that it offers an explanation that can be proven scientifically. I believe that man, religious man, and scientific man, has made many rules and regulations just to satisfy their desired outcome. The only reason I can comprehend is that they crave power and control over people. Maybe it’s just to add some level of comfort to themselves based on something that someone else has told them they were wrong about or something someone has told them they had to do, someone’s rules and regulation.

While I will not tell you what you should believe, I can tell you what I believe.

I believe that God is real, that there is only one God, that He created everything and that He made a very excellent place for each of us to live. I believe He created man and woman with a mind and gave us the ability to make decisions for ourselves. I believe that He never planned or wanted to be a dictator of how or where we place our faith. I believe that what is written in the Bible is truthful, factual, and it can be proven when one seriously looks at all of it. Everything that was predicted within the Bible, excluding the single last prediction, has been proven to have taken place including the story of Jesus. I believe that man has taken it upon himself to mess up this world for his own reasoning when it was so very simple right from the beginning. We were told to love God and to love our neighbor as ourself. If we would just do this, we would not kill because we love our neighbor as ourself, regardless of where our neighbor lives. We would have no need for additional man-made rules because the ones we have been given are enough to make the world live in harmony with each other.

Breaking it Down: if we could just…

If we would allow ourselves to step outside our current life, dropping for a moment our inner thoughts, forgetting what we have been taught in our schools, our homes and step back from any religious beliefs we have, opening our mind to all we see, what would we like the world to be like?

With everything that is happening around this world, many times in the name of God, or some god, or Allah, or in the name of progressive evolution, one should wonder why. Why does man take something so simple to grasp, add his desires and then drive his agenda?  What is it that makes man’s desire to do evil, to hate, to murder?

If you are a Christian, you say you believe in God. Why do those that kill in the name of this belief, kill at all, when to be a Christian you are to love one another.

If you a Muslim, you say you believe in God. Why do those that kill in the name of this belief, kill at all, when to be a Muslim you are to love one another.

If you acknowledge that God exist, then you should show love to everyone.

What makes man behave as he does? What makes humans make up their own rules just to satisfy man’s own desires?

One of the most basic needs in life is to be loved by a mother or father, a brother or sister, a son or a daughter, a friend or a foe. Yes, even our enemy. If we loved our enemies and we were loved by our enemies, we would no longer have enemies. It makes no difference where in this world you live or what your beliefs are. Love enables each of us to grasp our desired happiness and defeat evil, to stop doing evil, to stop being evil.

Coming back full circle, we step back into our world realizing that love is drastically missing in so many places. We recognize that some force is driving man away from this simple principle of life. Is it intellect and a belief man has evolved and that some levels of man are greater than others? Is it the man-made rules in some religious belief that pits one against another? Is it a form of arrogance, conceit, pride or superiority that separates one from another? Is it aggressiveness versus laziness? Is it an evil force driving the wedge of hate and deceit into our lives?

This is a question we should ask ourselves?

To be loved one must show love remembering that real love is unconditional and real love expects nothing in return. If your religious belief, which includes all religions, (i.e. Christian, Muslim/Islam, Atheist, Buddhism, etc.) includes evil, hate, murder, then maybe you should rethink your religious belief and take a stand for “Love your neighbor” and bring this world back to what it was designed to be from the beginning.

38 – Searching for Answers – Dreaming Again

Tom looked around as they walked into Joe’s apartment. Tom could see Joe had made some changes and was searching for words to express just how grateful he was for everything he had done for him when Joe looked over and said; Tom you look exhausted. I don’t want to sound like your parents but, it’s been a big day for you and you have visitors coming over to see you after a while. Maybe you should lie down for a little nap and I will get somethings rounded around for dinner. We should try to eat before Ann and everyone arrive. Sarah said your parents and Ann and her parents were going out for dinner and that they were planning to stop by for a little while to see how you are doing. They know this was a big change for you and didn’t want to slow your progress by coming early and staying too late. That sounds great Joe. Sorry I can’t be much help yet. I’m sure I will feel better tomorrow. Every day that goes by I know I am on the mend. But, I think I will take you up on the nap idea. I feel pretty tired and I really want to be ready before Ann gets here. I really want to tell our parents about everything.

Tom made his way to his new temporary bedroom and carefully sat on the edge of the bed and looked out the window. All he could think about was how great it felt to be out of the hospital. He could see a butterfly hovering just outside the window, the grass was green and the sky was blue. Somehow it looked so much better out Joe’s window than it had out of his hospital room window. Carefully he leaned back and shortly after his head hit the pillow he was getting some much needed sleep.

Joe was working around the kitchen and took out a couple of steaks that he had picked up the day before. He planned to grill them for dinner but wanted them to warm a little before he got started. Steak is always better when you grill it after it has acclimated to ambient temperature than right out of the refrigerator he told himself. Opening the refrigerator he pulled out the meat and as he shuffled some of the food around he spotted one of his favorite IPA’s and decided it was time to sit back for a few minutes and relax while the steaks warmed a bit. Sitting the steaks on a plate on the cupboard, he cracked open the beer and walked over to his favor reclining chair and sat down, pushed it back and took a slow cold sip. Joe was letting his mind recall everything that had happened over the last weeks when he remembered the story Tom had told him about when he had died. Joe closed his eyes as he tried to recall every detail of the story. Tom said there was this bright light and then he met his grandfather and as they were talking…

Joe raised his head to see a large boulder staring down at him. Taking one hand he wiped some dust from the side of his face and shook his head wondering where he was. Listening closely he could hear what sounded like voices coming from the other side of the massive stone that towered over him like a giant creature. It was dark but the longer he listened clearer sounds got. It was like people were talking and laughing then he heard a scream that sounded like someone being hurt. Then the scream went silent. Joe got on his hands and knees carefully making his way around the boulder and could see what look like a fire pit in a distance that had been dug out of the ground. He couldn’t see the flames just the light that appeared to bounce up against the dark sky. They looked inviting to the eye. Joe carefully stood up trying to see if someone was around. He looked back at the fire pit and still couldn’t see the flames only the light. The light was enticing him to come closer. As Joe started to move he looked to the other side and spotted a man and a women walking towards the flickering light. Joe quickly stooped down to avoid being discovered. As he watched the couple they appeared to be happy and not aware of the open pit they were approaching. They were looking in the sky talking about the beautiful lights and before Joe could say anything they just walked off the edge and into the pit. He heard them scream as they disappeared. The screams seemed to fade away as if the pit was deep. Joe jumped up and ran forward to see if he could help and as he approached the edge he ran into a fence that he hadn’t been able to see which stopped him dead in his tracks and knocked him to the ground. The sounds stopped as he sat wondering what he could have done to save the couple that he assumed was seriously hurt. Maybe they died in what looks like a simple fire pit Joe told himself. Looking through the fence he could hear what sounded like a big party going on but couldn’t see anything. Then he spotted someone walking out of the tree line towards the edge again as if they had no idea what was going to happen. It was like the fire pit was attracting them but they were oblivious to it. Joe started to shout but as the man looked over at Joe he walked straight off the edge and Joe could hear his fading scream for help. Then it stopped. Joe jumped to his feet and started to work his way around to the opposite side. Joe again heard laughter coming from a distance but it was coming from the other side of the fire pit where he had just been. The voices continued to get louder as they approached. Joe turned back wanting to stop them and as he started to move he hit the fence and fell backwards hitting the ground harder than the first time. Looking up he started to yell at them. But as the group of five looked up they walked off the edge and again Joe could hear the screaming. Then it stopped. Then he heard someone approaching from behind him and turned to see a young man about his age. He stopped just as he reached the edge of the tree line and was looking into the sky. Joe thought he could see a smile on his face as he inched his way towards the pit. Joe told him to stop but he continued to laugh and started walking quickly forward as if Joe was not there. As he walked past Joe making his way towards the enticing light, Joe reached out to grab his shoulder but missed. The man was walking straight forward into the opening in the ground. Joe lunged and the fence appeared out of nowhere and knocked Joe to the ground again. Joe went silent on the ground, closed his eyes as tight as he could as he could still hear the screams from the man that he had tried to save. Then they stopped.

Joe rolled over, picked himself up and rubbed his eyes. Once he opened them he realized he was looking out the window of his apartment staring at the sun as it was beginning to settle behind the big tree. Sweat was running off Joe’s forehead when he heard Tom shout from the other room asking if everything was alright. Yes, replied Joe as he was trying to gain his composure. Joe sat down in his chair trying to grasp what he assumed was another dream. So when are we going to eat, shouted Tom. I will start up the grill and things should be ready in the next half hour replied Joe as he continued trying to comprehend what had just happened.

Before long the two of them were sitting at the table finishing up what was left of the steak. Tom looked over at Joe and told him how nice it was to be eating someplace other than the hospital adding that they don’t serve food like this there. Tom became a little more serious as he could see Joe had something on his mind. Even though they were talking and laughing a little during dinner Tom could feel the presence of something deeper going on with Joe. You have been pretty quiet Joe. You look like you have something pretty heavy on your mind. Care to share it? Joe was almost thankful Tom had opened the door for him. Tom, you aren’t going to believe it. But I had another dream and… You had what Tom quickly interjected as he was waiting for Joe to continue? Tom, I had another dream! Was it about dinosaurs again quizzed Tom? No, it was totally different. I don’t get it Tom. I haven’t had any crazy dreams like this since Sarah and I dug into the issue of creation and evolution. That was when I made my decision to accept Jesus as the creator. I don’t know what this dream means. I just know that the last dreams sent me on a quest to find answers. Now even though I can remember ever detail of this dream I have no idea what it is trying to tell me. It’s craze and it was a terrible dream. But we don’t have time to talk about the details of it now. I can tell you later. We need to get ready for your visitors. They should be here any time.

24 – Searching for Answers – Joe and Sarah go to Church

How will Joe handle the first time going to church with Sarah? Will the people at church accept him and make him feel comfortable?


Joe jumped out of bed realizing it was already 9:00. Wow, did I sleep last night. The evening’s events and talks began to mentally resurface as he was brewing a fresh cup of Kona coffee. The toast popped up from the toaster and grabbing the raspberry jam from the fridge Joe spread some on the toast and carried them along with his coffee over to the small table next to his favorite chair and sat down. What a night. I can’t believe I told everyone about how I felt about God. And Tom, I still can’t believe he just sat there and said nothing. I expected him to needle me and give me a hard time. And then everyone else that joined in. Even Carol and Sarah met each other and exchanged phone numbers. Oh that might not be all that good for me as Joe’s mind began to recall some of the mischief he and Carol had gotten into when they were dating. Joe told himself to stop worrying about the past as he convinced himself that Carol had made a good friend in Sarah and that was a good thing.

Joe looked over at the clock and realized time was getting away from him again and quickly headed for the shower. After a quick shower he picked out some of his better clothes to wear, got dressed and before long he was at Sarah’s house and they were driving to Sunday morning church together for the first time. Walking in Pastor Dan spotted them and walked over to say hi. Sarah, I see you brought Joe with you. Hi Pastor Dan, it’s nice to see you again, replied Joe. How’s everything been going Joe? Things have been getting better and I think you might be seeing a little more of me. I look forward to it, replied Pastor Dan, but please just call me Dan. You guys going to come tonight when Dr. Bob is here? Wouldn’t miss it, replied Joe with a level of enthusiasm that left no doubt in the Pastor Dan mind that something had changed in Joe. You know I ran into Dr. Bob at the Pub a couple weeks ago and we had a great conversation. I look forward to talking to him again. Well, we better go find a seat. We will see you tonight, right. Pastor Dan smiled saying I wouldn’t miss it. Joe and Sarah made their way towards the middle of the church when Sarah saw her parents. You want to sit with mom and dad. Sounds good to me Joe replied as they made their way over to say hi. You guys have a good time last night? Oh mom, you don’t know the half of it Sarah responded with such enthusiasm it took her mother by surprise. Really, what happened that is so great, quizzed her mom. Well it’s a bit of a long story. We can tell you more at lunch if we are still invited. Of course you are and dad made reservation at that new restaurant you guys went to a few weeks ago. Why don’t we just plan to meet you guys there after church? Sounds great replied Sarah as she look at Joe with a smile that left no question in her mom’s mind that Sarah was falling for Joe.

Joe sat back waiting for the service to begin when he began to recall the first time he had walked in the doors of this church and a chill came over him. Oh come on Joe, you’re happy to be here and you’re with Sarah. But I felt like no one wanted me here before. Is it because I have better clothes on or maybe because I showered before I came that I feel welcomed? Is it because I’m with Sarah? But that shouldn’t be that way. It shouldn’t matter. Maybe it is just my attitude that has changed. Maybe it was all in my mind that I wasn’t welcomed. After all, Sarah told me she came looking for me but I was already gone. Maybe I didn’t give these people a chance and look how nice Sarah’s mom and dad are. I know I wasn’t about to give God a chance at that time but is that the difference? They do have some good music, Joe thought to himself as he smiled at Sarah and took hold of her hand giving it a small squeeze. Wow, my life has really changed began surging through his mind.

Church was just getting started when Joe felt someone behind him tapping on his shoulder. Turning he could see Ann and then he spotted Tom sitting on the other side of her. Joe poked Sarah in the arm and as she turned to see what Joe wanted she saw Ann and Tom sitting right behind them. Looking a little closer she also could see that most everybody that was part of the discussion at the bonfire was sitting there also. She leaned over and whispered into Joe ear; did you see what I see? You mean Tom and Ann, replied Joe? No – I mean everyone from last night. Joe turned his head taking a quick look and couldn’t quite believe his eyes. Then he spotted Carol sitting with Paul just behind the rest of the gang. Joe raised his hand just a little, smiled and gave a small wave at everyone. He turned back around, took hold of Sarah’s hand again, took a big breath of air and just smiled a big grin.

After a couple of songs and a few announcements were made, Pastor Dan stood up and was just about ready to start his message but stopped long enough to say; I see we have some visitors with us today and I want to welcome each of you. Joe smiled to himself as the rest of the gang realized Pastor Dan was speaking to all of them. Pastor Dan began speaking on his topic for the day which fit right in with the topic that Dr. Bob would be covering that evening. It wasn’t so much about evolution and creation as it was about how we need to open our minds and explore topic’s like evolution and creation even if it makes us feel a little uncomfortable. He spoke about how we are all gifted with a mind to think with and how we many times don’t even realize how we allow our mind to be fed with information. How we get stuck in a way of thinking because someone else tell you how you should think. He conclude the service by adding that you should always feel free to question and even challenge things that I speaks about. That is why God gave us the brain and mind to think with. All of Joe and Sarah’s friends really caught hold of the last statement. Pastor Dan sat down, the final words of the closing song was completed, and church was over. Ann and Tom and the rest of the group joined together in the back of the church by the door and was just having small talk when Sarah broke the ice about everyone coming to church. Looking across the group but more directly at Carol, she said it is really nice to see everyone this morning. I really had a great time last night with you guys. Thanks for making me feel so welcome. Carol quickly spoke up saying; it was really nice to meet you also but that had to be one of the more interesting parties I’ve been to in a long time. Everyone smiled and acknowledged that Carol was right. Several others spoke up saying it was a lot of fun and a couple added that they really enjoyed how open everyone was. Joe turned and looked at Tom saying; Hey man, I am really glad you came. Well – you are my best friend and I decided I better check this out if I was going to keep our long standing friendship together. Somebody’s got to keep you straight. But really you should thank Ann just a little. She suggested it. We sat around talking about everything you guy’s told us last night after you guys left and… well let’s just say that Sarah made a lot of good points but the jury is still out on you, Tom said as he started to laugh and others joined in. We all know you can be a bit crazy at times. Ha, ha Tom, was Joe’s reply. So I guess I really do want to know a lot more about what you have learned about evolution and creation and the possibility that God created everything, Tom added after the groups laughter slowed down. Several other joined in saying; we all do. Joe quickly replied by saying; well if you really want to learn more about evolution and creation maybe you guys should come back tonight at 7:00. Sarah and I will be here and they have a guest speaker, Dr. Bob, who I have met more than once and is a great one to ask your questions too and he’s really easy to talk too. I think I will come, Tom quickly added. You going to come with me Ann? I sure am. I got to keep tabs on you buddy. Before long everyone had committed to be there but Carol who spoke up saying I have to work tonight at the Pub. Maybe you could get someone to fill in for you, Paul quickly added. It would be great if you could come. I could pick you and we could come together. I’ll try and give you a call to let you know either way.

The group broke up and Joe and Sarah made their way to the restaurant where her mom and dad were waiting. Let’s order. I’m starving commented Sarah’s dad. They ordered up and before long their meal had arrived. Sarah’s dad looked at Sarah and said; for some reason I feel like we should say grace before our meal today. I think we really should dad, Sarah quickly added. We have so much to be thankful for. I second that Joe chimed in. Sarah’s dad said a short prayer thanking God for their food and added; thanks for Joe and Sarah’s and their special friendship.

Ok, let’s eat. I’m hungry added Sarah’s dad. Ok dad, we get it. You are a little on the hungry side, added Sarah as she smirked at her dad and started to laugh. About halfway through the meal Sarah’s mom spoke up; so what happened last night anyway and who were all those friends that showed up today at church? Oh mom, you aren’t going to believe it. Come on, out with it. I can’t stand this suspense any longer, Sarah’s mom added. Sarah went on to tell the story about the fire and the songs and dancing and how everyone was have a good time. She continued telling her parents about how good Joe was playing the guitar and singing and how she and Ann started singing together like they did while they were in school. Then the topic about God and evolution and creation came up just because Joe told them he need to get me home so we could make it to church this morning. That’s when the discussion got started and before we knew it they all wanted to know more about God and I read them my cheat sheet from my purse and… well let just say several others spoke up about their belief in God. Joe and I finally said we had to go and got up and left as they sat quietly around the last of the fire. We had no idea they would show up at church this morning and now most of them are coming tonight to hear Dr. Bob. Can you believe it? Yes Sarah I can, replied Sarah’s mom. Yes I can. It is amazing how people react when they are just told the truth.

Before long they were done and when Carl went to pay the tab he found that it had already been paid for. The waitress told him the young man at his table had slipped her his credit card and all was taken care of. Carl walked back to the table and looked at June and said; I guess we are special people. Joe bought us lunch when my back was turned. You know Carl you are not a quick as you used to be added June as she grinned a slight smirk and then thanked Joe for lunch. Well you are both special people to me, Joe quickly added. You have made me feel welcome from the first time I met you. You have fed me and most of all you are just really nice. So thank you and oh yes I kind of like your daughter Sarah too if that’s alright. Sarah blushed as she looked at her dad and mom and smiled. Well we like her too added Carl with a chuckle. And I am glad you do, added Sarah. Joe, you are welcome to come and join us anytime. Especially if you are going to pick up the check, Carl added as June poked him in the ribs. Everyone laughed as they made their way to the exit.

Joe and Sarah walked out and just as they got in the car Sarah leaned over and gave Joe a kiss and a hug. You make me so happy Joe. Well you make me very happy too, replied Joe. You are very special Sarah and I want to continue our relationship and make it work. I love you and someday… well let’s just say if we continue and things work out maybe someday we can be like your parents. Still in love with each other! Sarah heard something that scared her a little but at the same time brought about a feeling she knew she wanted to experience with Joe. She looked over at Joe and smiled as she leaned over and gave him another kiss. Joe didn’t need to hear any words. The kiss said it all.

“To be continued”


Where is the relationship between Joe and Sarah headed? How will the gang react to Dr. Bob? Will the gang fall apart after the special meeting on evolution and creation because of the difference of opinions?

21 – Searching for Answers – Can Love Blossom

Where will Joe and Sarah take their relationship now that Joe has some answers and made his decisions on evolution, creation and God? Will Carol mess up the works and send Joe tumbling backwards putting tension between them?


Joe and Tom split the bill throwing enough cash on the bar to pay the tab along with the tip and Tom added enough extra while Joe wasn’t looking to make Carol smile when she counted it. Keep the change Carol. See you next time Tom said with a smile and a raised voice making sure she heard him. Carol smiled back but was looking straight at Joe and said I hope so and quickly adding; call me when you get a chance. Joe just smiled as he turned and walked to the exit. Walking out the back exit they headed to their cars. See you later Joe. And Joe, you better be careful or Carol just might have other ideas for you. Oh come on Tom. That is just not going to happen. Tom chuckled out loud as he opened the door to his car. We’ll see Joe, we’ll see. My money is on Carol.

 Joe jumped into his car, fired it up and turned left on to the street and headed back to his place when his phone rang. He left it lay next to him on the seat not answering it but could see it was Sarah. A few seconds later he could see she had left a message which would wait until he made it to his place. Joe hung a right and before long he was walking into his apartment. He quickly opened his phone, hit voice mail and heard Sarah say; hi Joe, just wanted to give you a call and see how your day was. Call if you have a minute. Nothing important, just wanted to say hi. Talk to you later. Still thinking about everything that happened during the day and how Tom was egging him on and then there was Carol flirting with him, too much to process right now Joe told himself. Heading over to his favorite chair he sat down and closed his eyes just to rest his eyelids and possibly shut down his mind enough that he just might be able to get some sleep. After some time had passed he began to relax, so he headed to bed and before long he was sleeping like a baby.

The alarm began to ring and Joe quickly rolled over and hit the snooze button. I just got in bed. Why is this alarm ringing already he asked himself subconsciously? Glancing at the clock he could see it was telling him it was 6:00am. It can’t be. Maybe this should be another hooky day. No – I better get up and head to work before the boss gets upset with me. Rolling back over he forced himself out of bed and headed for the shower.

Before long he was in the parking lot and walking in the door. Tom was a little bit early and was already sitting on a chair in the area they both worked. Good morning my man, Tom blurted out. It would be if it was Saturday and I could have slept in Joe said as he rubbed his eyes. What’s making you so smiley this morning? I had fun last night watching you try to ignore Carol and all the flirting she was doing with you. Oh yah, picking up right where you left off last night. I already told you that Sarah….. Ok let’s just drop it Tom. I am tired and don’t want to play this game right now. Sorry, just having some fun Joe. What else is there in this craze life if we can’t have fun? Yah, that’s true, replied Joe. Tom chucked as they both strapped on their tools. A few seconds later the buzzer sounded, hammers started making noise and the workday was in progress none too quick for Joe.

Joe was working along when his mind went back to what Carol had said about giving her a call. Should I call her, should I tell Sarah about her first or should I just leave it alone he asked himself? I really need Carol to get the message that I am not interested and I sure don’t want to screw up anything with Sarah. Maybe I should start with the most important person first. Sarah.

The buzzer sounded and it was break time so Joe headed to the door and quickly opened his phone and hit the speed dial to Sarah. Sarah picked right up startling Joe. Hi Sarah, I’m surprised you were able to answer. I’m on break for just a couple of minutes and was going to leave you a voice mail. Do you have a minute right now? Sure Sarah replied, but let me close the door first. Joe could hear the door close and then Sarah said; what’s up? Well I…. I really need to see you today sometime if I can. I need to tell you about what happened last night. Remember I told you my old girlfriend was back in town? What did you do Joe? I didn’t do anything Sarah. I just want to talk to you first before I do anything. What do you mean, before you do anything? You told me it was history and I believed you, Sarah blurted out. Well that is just the problem. She doesn’t get it. I guess I need to tell her about you and… well I think you know what I have to do Sarah. No, I don’t know Joe. History is history. Yes it is and it sounds like you are taking this wrong Sarah. All I wanted to do was ask if we could get together tonight. I want to tell you the whole story. Could I come over and see you after we are out of work later this afternoon? Sure, but why don’t you come over around 7:00 tonight? I should be home by that time. Ok. See you at 7:00 and don’t worry about anything, Joe added. Joe flipped his phone closed and walked back inside shaking his head saying; Women!

 Sarah hung-up and sat back in her chair thinking about what she had just heard. Men, they drive me crazy. I think we just had our first fight? It’s too early in our relationship to be having any kind of fight. No, that was not a fight. Anyway, what is this Carol up too? No good by the sounds of it. Well I know one thing for sure. If Joe and I are going to have a future he will need to deal with this and show me I am important or it is just never going to work. Come on Sarah, you know Joe loves you. He told you he did and he just made a commitment to God and has found answers to a lot of his questions and you are worried about some old girlfriend? Get your act together girl!

It wasn’t long before Joe was driving up in front of Sarah place. He jumped out and was making his way towards the front door when he heard Sarah. Sarah had seen him drive up and heard him close his car door and shouted; I am out back Joe. Heading around the corner of the house he could see Sarah sitting in a lounge chair next to the table under the tree in the back corner. Opening the gate he waved as he walked on back. Oh this is not good Joe muttered to himself as he made his way towards Sarah. Something is wrong. Joe walked up to Sarah who remained in her chair and bend down expecting to give her a kiss when she gently turned her head so Joe kissed her cheek instead. Joe’s head was spinning with thoughts. Man, Carol has already screwed things up and she didn’t even have to try very hard. That is one of the things I disliked about her when we were dating steady a year ago.

Joe sat down next to Sarah, looked over at her and started to say; Sarah you know I love you and I am sorry if you have misunderstood any of this. I should have talked to you last week about Carol. Sarah jumped in saying Joe, Carol should have been history and that is why I never worried about her. But now it sounds like she is not. Well she is Sarah. I meant what I said. I just need to make her aware of it and she just doesn’t take a hint very well. That is what I wanted to talk to you about. So how am I supposed to help you with this anyway spouted out Sarah. Well you really can’t. I just wanted you to know that I was… that I need to go and talk to Carol and wanted you to know I was. I don’t want anything between us Sarah. I want this to work and for that to happen we need to be open with each other. Sarah turned her head and had a slight smile on her face. I’m sorry Joe. I am not very good with all this. I was hurt by a guy a couple of years ago who let an old girlfriend back in his life and… Stop Sarah, there is no old girlfriend coming back into my life.

They sat quietly for what seemed like minutes and was really only a few seconds when Sarah got up and stepped over towards Joe holding her hand out. Joe stood up and taking hold of her he pulled her close and kissed her on the neck and whispered I really love you Sarah. She turned her head slightly and then they were face to face as their lips came together and they held each other close. Sarah pulled back just enough to reply, I love you too Joe and I am sorry for being defensive. I understand that you need to take care of this thing with Carol and I will help any way I can. Just your understanding is all I need Sarah. I do, replied Sarah as she kissed him again.

Just then they heard the back door open and Sarah’s mom shout out; hey you two, we have pizza if you guy’s would like to join us. Sarah looked at Joe and said have you eaten yet? Yes, but there is always a little room for pizza. They started walking towards the back door when Joe took Sarah’s hand and said; Tom is having a party Saturday night and he is putting pressure on me to come, bring my guitar and he invited you also. Tom is bringing Ann and I am sure there will be several couples there. Will you go with me? Just then the door swung open as Sarah’s dad walked out. I need to get a couple of beers from the patio fridge. Do you two want anything? Yah, get me a coke but Joe may like one of your beers. What would you like Joe. Do you have an IPA? I will bring one in for you.

The four of them sat around the table talking about their day at work, telling jokes and stories, eating pizza and laughing a lot. Joe felt very comfortable around Sarah’s parents. They made him feel very welcome in their home as if they had known him all their lives. They had just polished off the remaining pizza and were shooting the breeze when Joe checked his watch and realized just how late it really was. As much fun as I am having, I really better get going so I can make it to work tomorrow morning. It was really nice of you to invite me in and I had a really nice time and thanks for the beer and pizza. In just a couple of minutes Sarah and Joe found themselves standing outside the front door trying to say good-by, when Sarah looked at Joe and said; I want to go with you Saturday night. What time does the party start? I will pick you up around 7:30 if that’s alright. But I can’t stay out too late. Remember we have that meeting the next evening with Dr. Bob and I want to go to church Sunday morning. Hey, you want to come with me Sunday morning? You are still planning to go to the meeting Sunday night with me to listen to Dr. Bob aren’t you? Joe stood quiet for a couple seconds and finally said; sure, why not. I’ll plan to go to both with you. We can talk about it a little more Saturday night. Sarah took Joe’s hand as she began walking him to his car. Joe opened his door as he was getting ready to leave when Sarah put her arm around his neck and gave him a kiss that made his head spin. See you Saturday night around 7:30. It will be a campfire so don’t get dressed up Joe added. Ok replied Sarah as she made her way back towards the house. Joe slid in his car, closed the door, fired it up and looked over just in time to see Sarah wave good-by as she walked in the house.

“To be continued”


As the love grows between Joe and Sarah will Carol get the message? How will Sarah handle Joe’s friends? Will the party be a lot of fun or will Tom stir things up just a little? How will Joe tell Carol that he is not interested?